Man, I'm so sorry

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I want to hold you close
Skin pressed against me tight
Lie still close your eyes girl
So lovely it feels so right....

I want to hold you close
Soft breath; beating heart
As I whisper in your ear
I wanna fucking tear you apart....

Thats so beautiful...really.. T__T

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They will see, we'll fight until eternity,
Come with me, we'll stand and fight together,
Through our strength, we'll make a better day tomorrow,
We, shall never surrender.

amazing hun.
call me if you need me.

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xoxo for now

Oh my god....I am sooo sorry Adri...God I understand where you come from...really...How wonderful your uncle sounds....reminds me so much of my grampy.....*holds you close* Its the hardest thing to ever experience. Sometimes you just wish you can rewind time. But life is cruel at its times. And life does what it does. It takes lives of others. But their is one thing it cannot take away. It can NEVER keep his love away from you. No matter where you are, your uncle will always, and I mean it, he will always be in your heart.
He loves you very much and he is somewhere safer now.
He's in a heavenly place now. He can't be hurt or sick anymore. But he will always be with you. He's in your heart. And there he shall always be.

Heres my advice to you my friend. This helped me through my greiving.
As long as you hold him in your heart, he will always be with you.
If you ever need me my friend, I'm always here if you need a shoulder to cry on.

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~ Rachel AKA MetaChick

Thanks Rachel, that means a lot...

It's just that I never got to say goodbye...

And I'm so angry and so painful and I don't know why and I just want to hurt myself....

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All this time I've taught my self 3 things:

1. A strong person is a good lier
2. a stronger person is a good lier who doesn't get caught
3. The strongest person is such a good lier that they can lie to themselves

your very welcome.
I understand. Truly I do. It really is hard to say goodbye. But even though he's gone, he never left your side. He is in your heart. -^^-
Don't hurt yourself because of this Adri, I know it hurts. I mean, when my grampy died, I wanted to beat myself. But I didnt. I learned, even though he passed on, he never left. I know it seems like your uncle is gone. But he hasn't left you. He and his love are deep within your heart.
Believe me. he is still with you. He will never leave you, he will always love you. And he will watch over you. -^^-

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~ Rachel AKA MetaChick

I know, it;s just so hard. I want to go back to old traditions of hurting other people, but that would just make it worse, so why not hurt myself...?

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All this time I've taught my self 3 things:

1. A strong person is a good lier
2. a stronger person is a good lier who doesn't get caught
3. The strongest person is such a good lier that they can lie to themselves

No, hurting you and hurting other people won't help you any. Just be with Star, Devon, Rio, ya' know your friends. They can help you. They will heal you. Even your parents believe it or not. Just give it time. Your heart needs time to restore. I know its harder then anything but don't hurt yourself or any one else. Trust me, if you do that, it'll just leave you more pain. And trust me, I tried that a loooooooooooooong time ago.

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~ Rachel AKA MetaChick

No, I'm not going to hurt anyone. Atleast I'll try not to...

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All this time I've taught my self 3 things:

1. A strong person is a good lier
2. a stronger person is a good lier who doesn't get caught
3. The strongest person is such a good lier that they can lie to themselves